Yesterday (and today) I was (and am) super depressed, so I went to bed early to get everything off of my mind, and now I woke up at 1:00am and I can’t get back to sleep, and I can’t get her off of my mind, so I guess I’ll just be on tumblr or something until 7:00.
She told me to text her to find a time/place to hang out, so that should be fun.
Well, I just got rejected by her, anyone want to shoot me?
I’m going to try to ask her out today, hope she says yes!
I found out she’s single, so I was going to ask her out today, like 3 times, the first time I got nervous, the second time she was busy, and the third time I was really happy because I saw her and I just had a stupid grin and a wave, if she was anyone else I would’ve asked her out by now. I love her so much.
I have $100,155,048,000,000.11 from Zimbabwe
I just browse random accounts on tumblr, nothing is mine unless I say it is.
I think I finally decided what my next gun will be, a Colt model 1860 Army
I replaced my (very) old ¾ inch wide 1/16 inch thick bent in half copper pipe
I replaced it with a 10 or so year old 1 ½ inch wide ¼ inch thick 1 ½ foot long sraight galvanized steel pipe
Pipe NO II for the win.
I’m going to make an attempt to ask her if she wants to go to the beach and catch up since we havn’t really hung out in a while, I really hope she says yes, I know I probrobly won’t ever be able to date her, but I still want to be good friends with her.
When you hear someone wants to fight you, and they fight dirty, find a copper pipe, bigger .75mm thick but smaller than 2mm thick, and hit them in the side of the head with a respectable amount of force when they try to fight you, don’t kill them, just hit them once, say you found the pipe and you were going to scrap it, live life to the fullest, just remember, murder is a crime, self defence (again do NOT kill them)with thin scrap metal is not.
I’m not a gynecologist, but I’ll take a look.
1. I play left handed guitars
2. I am left handed
3. I am smarter than most people (when I took the ASVAB in 10th grade I scored 76, abd when I took the PSAT in 7th grade I scored higher than 70 something percent of juniors)
4. I’m not nerdy like you probrobly think I am
5. I’ve been a furry for about 4 years
6. I’ve played the guitar since I was 8
7. I collect guns, other assorted weapons, helmets, and money
8. I am a fucking airhead sometimes
9. I suck at finding girlfriends because I’m too damn pickey
10. I am younger than 44,000,000 years old.
I don’t think I’ll get to 5k by 6/16/15, but I will probrobly get to atleast 4,500, 4,469 is what I have now.
She never mentions the word addiction
In certain company
Yes, she’ll tell you she’s an orphan
After you meet her family
She paints her eyes as black as night now
Pulls those shades down tight
Yeah, she gives a smile when the pain come
The pain gonna make everything alright
Says she talks to angels
They call her out by her name
Oh yeah, she talks to angels
Says they call her out by her name
She keeps a lock of hair in her pocket
She wears a cross around her neck
Yes, the hair is from a little boy
And the cross is someone she has not met
Not yet
Says she talks to angels
Says they all know her name
Oh yeah, she talks to angels
Says they call her out by her name
She don’t know no lover
None that I ever seen
Yeah, to her that ain’t nothin’
But to me, yeah me
Means everything
She paints her eyes as black as night now
She pulls those shades down tight
Oh yeah, there’s a smile when the pain comes
The pain gonna make everything alright
Alright, yeah heah
She talks to angels
Says they call her out by her name
Oh, yeah, heah, angels
Call her out by her name
Oh, ooh, oh, oh, angels
They call her out by her name
Oh, oh, oh, she talks to angels
They call her out
Yeah, ee, eah, eah, eah, eah
Call her out
Don’t you know that they
Call her out by her name?
Desperado, why don’t you come to your senses?
You been out ridin’ fences for so long now
Oh, you’re a hard one but I know that you got your reasons
These things that are pleasin’ you can hurt you somehow
Don’t you draw the queen of diamonds boy
She’ll beat you if she’s able
You know the queen of hearts is always your best bet
Now it seems to me, some fine things
Have been laid upon your table
But you only want the ones that you can’t get
Desperado, oh you ain’t gettin’ no younger
Your pain and your hunger, they’re drivin’ you home
And freedom, oh freedom, well that’s just some people talkin’
Your prison is walkin’ through this world all alone
Don’t your feet get cold in the winter time?
The sky won’t snow and the sun won’t shine
It’s hard to tell the night time from the day
You’re losin’ all your highs and lows
Ain’t it funny how the feelin’ goes away?
Desperado, why don’t you come to your senses?
Come down from your fences, open the gate
It may be rainin’ but there’s a rainbow above you
You better let somebody love you
(Let somebody love you)You better let somebody love you before it’s too late
I feel like shit, and I have a fever of 101.5°f, if I don’t post anything today, I’m sorry.
Today I was walking alone, in a trench coat, silent, on an almost empty sidewalk, the sun was shining, the sky was clear, and people though I was psycho.
All day staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something
Hold on
Feeling like I’m headed for a breakdown
And I don’t know why
But I’m not crazy, I’m just a little unwell
I know right now you can’t tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you’ll see
A different side of me
I’m not crazy, I’m just a little impaired
I know right now you don’t care
But soon enough you’re gonna think of me
And how I used to be, me
I’m talking to myself in public
Dodging glances on the train
And I know, I know they’ve all been talking about me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong with me
Out of all the hours thinking
Somehow I’ve lost my mind
But I’m not crazy, I’m just a little unwell
I know right now you can’t tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you’ll see
A different side of me
I’m not crazy, I’m just a little impaired
I know right now you don’t care
But soon enough you’re gonna think of me
And how I used to be
I’ve been talking in my sleep
Pretty soon they’ll come to get me
Yeah, they’re taking me away
But I’m not crazy, I’m just a little unwell
I know right now you can’t tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you’ll see
A different side of meI’m not crazy, I’m just a little impaired
I know right now you don’t care
But soon enough you’re gonna think of me
And how I used to be
Hey, how I used to be
How I used to be
Well, I’m just a little unwell
How I used to be
How I used to be
I’m just a little unwell
Oh life, it’s bigger
It’s bigger than you
And you are not me
The lengths that I will go to
The distance in your eyes
Oh no, I’ve said too much
I’ve said enough
That’s me in the corner
That’s me in the spotlight
Losing my religion
Trying to keep up with you
And I don’t know if I can do it
Oh no, I’ve said too much
I haven’t said enough
I thought that I heard you laughing
I thought that I heard you sing
I think I thought I saw you try
Every whisper
Of every waking hour
I’m choosing my confessions
Trying to keep an eye on you
Like a hurt, lost and blinded fool, fool
Oh no, I’ve said too much
I’ve said enough
Consider this
Consider this, the hint of the century
Consider this, the slip
That brought me to my knees, failed
What if all these fantasies come
Flailing around
Now I’ve said too much
I thought that I heard you laughing
I thought that I heard you sing
I think I thought I saw you try
But that was just a dream
That was just a dream
That’s me in the corner
That’s me in the spotlight
Losing my religion
Trying to keep up with you
And I don’t know if I can do it
Oh no, I’ve said too much
I haven’t said enoughI thought that I heard you laughing
I thought that I heard you sing
I think I thought I saw you try
But that was just a dream
Try, cry, why try
That was just a dream
Just a dream
Just a dream, dream
I got a couple fan-mails about this, the girl I’m in love with isn’t a furry, one of the other two girls I like is. Since I know I probrobly won’t get to be with the girl I want to be with most, I might as well try to get with one of those other girls, I’m friends with all three, so I don’t know, wish me luck I guess.
I remembered something, I like 2 girls, 3 if you count the one I am hopelessly in love with, 1 of the 2 is a nerdy puerto rican girl, the other is a white girl, who is a furry, I think I know who I’d choose out of those two! óÔÔò!
I have a Jehova’s witness church and a spanish church on my street, and they never come to my house, I think it’s because of a combination of answering the door with a high powered rifle, and telling them I’ve already accepted “the great lord satan” into my home and my heart.
Disclaimer, I’m not satanic.
When I was in middle school I was short fat and ugly, and now I’m tall, skinny, and less ugly, thank you puberty!
You know what sucks, when you love someone more than you would ever guess is humanly possible, and they just see you as one of thier many friends, when you’ve given them everything a few times, and they still don’t love you back, when you’ve almost put a loaded rifle to your head and didn’t shoot only because you feared she may feel bad, or because you’d never see her again, all because you want to be her everything, but you can’t, and you try to get over her, but you love her too much, and you’d do anything for her, and she doesn’t respond to your messages. God I love you, I just want you to show that you atleast appreaciate me. And don’t fucking tell me she’s not right for me, she’s everything I could ever want in a friend, let alone a partner. Please love me anywhere near as much as I love you.
Sometimes it’s nice collecting stuff and things.